Anger
I have never had to go through an experience like this before, and I pray never again. Besides the agony of what is going on in my heart, you have the people that don't know what to say, yet say something anyway. I respect the people that come right out and say, "Hey, I am at a loss for words, but I am hear for you...pulling, praying, here for you. But the other people...need a swift kick.
Sometimes I people suck...
Sometimes I people suck...
posted by Original Blog-surfer | 1:14 AM
7 Comments:
Justin...
I am reading both blog sites. How different. Both understandable. I have been in your position--with my mother. My brother and I had to make the decision. It's gut wrenching. My youngest daughter died at 30 after battling cancer. I asked the "why" question. So far, no answer. She left four children and a husband. The two youngest kids will have no memory of their mother--only what we tell them. Why? I don't know.
Being a rationalist, I am convinced our God is good, I am His creation, He loves me, my Mom and my Kelly. I know they are better off, but that does not relieve my grief. Even today, after 10 and 12 years, I can still tear up when I hear a song/hymn, when I think of times with them, when I am with Kelly's kids and think of what they and she have missed. I must trust the God of all grace and mercy and love.
Many of those you would like to kick have never experienced a pain similar to yours. Forgive them. Their turn may come unexpectedly around the next corner of life. Then they will need you.
Perhaps I am one you would like to kick. I don't know. If so, so ahead and kick. I can learn from you, too.
You are loved...all three...no, all four of you. For the past week or ten days, we at the Takilma Bible Church have been praying for you guys. What do we pray for? The usual? Not knowing our wise God's plan, we do not know how to pray...except that you cling to Him. At the very least, what we (you and we) say we believe is being tested.
At another time I will try to remember to share with you the Gordon Jensen's lyrics that have so captured for me the essence of James 1.
Another time. Keep the faith in the time of testing. Embrace the grief. Let the tears flow. Cling to each other. Love your daughter.
Dave (for Dave & Bev Winchester)
Hey Justin. I haven't been around for a long time, I just read your posts. I don't know what to say, and of course I don't know how you feel, if I had the right words I would say them. I can't imagine what you're going through, I will be praying for you and your family, you know where to find me..
Let me know, if you want to..
Karmen
You are right. When at a loss for what to say it is better to shut up. But, focus your attention on your daughter and your family, don't let this get the best of you. I truly don't know what to say that could comfort you, and quite frankly I don't think they exist. People are trying to comfort you, albeit awkwardly, don't shoot them down
All I can say is I love you and wish I could be there with you through this. I am praying for you and I know I will meet Anarazell someday and for that I can not wait. By the way that is a beautiful name. Love you Bro, love all three of you.
Put your trust in the Lord. Remember "HE will never leave you nor forsake you." HE knows best. Praying for your daughter and family. Be strong.
I hear you. Sometimes I think we spend a lot of time making excuses for people who are so full of themselves it makes you want to throw up. I know it is the way they are reared, but...
Erik
Hey, I just found this blog - I read both of them but this one is more 'you'. The one where you don't have to put on any pretences and just write what you feel. I have one of those too - a blog that my parents and inlaws don't read. That's where I vent about them hahahahaha.
Anyway - I hear you. We had some unbelievably stupid things emerge from friends and relatives mouths after our baby son died. It sucks. That's all I can say. It's been nearly 6 years for us, and still we get the occasional boneheaded comment. I just try to ignore it. Stupid people will always be around. It sucks. It sucks. it sucks.
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