Insomnia
I have never really had a problem with sleeping, but lately if I wake up during the night, and stay up longer then a few minutes, then the rest of my night is pretty much shot!
I think that the bout of insomnia is directly related to the time that I need to get up in the morning. Like this morning...I am needing to be up and about around 5 AM...so my daughter woke me up around 2:30 and I am still up. If there was no reason for me to get up this morning...I would still be sleeping soundly!
Usually I try to lay in bed and do my best to fall back to sleep, but when I have less then an hour to sleep I realized that I am fighting a losing battle and I might as well do something with the time. No need to waste it...
We are less then three days away from leaving the state of Missouri for good. I can hardly wait. In my life I don't waste much time on feelings of regret, guilt or other similar emotions. What is done...is done and no amount of emotions can change it. I try to look back and see what I can learn from what has happened and move on. I like to focus on the positives and let the rest roll of my back.
But when it comes to the state of Missouri I can not think of one single thing that is positive. Not one. Which for me is weird...I can usually see good in most situations.
The weather here is gross.
Everything bites...everything! From bugs to snakes to turtles...they all want a piece of you.
The roads are absolutely terrible...and I have been acrossed the country several times.
We have meet some nice people...but none of them are Missouri natives so I can't even give you a good evaluation on that.
And to top it off, Missouri is the state we were living in when our daughter died...so pretty much everything is shadowed by that fact.
I will scratch Missouri, (appropriately nick-named Misery) off my list and hope to never have to live here again...
I think that the bout of insomnia is directly related to the time that I need to get up in the morning. Like this morning...I am needing to be up and about around 5 AM...so my daughter woke me up around 2:30 and I am still up. If there was no reason for me to get up this morning...I would still be sleeping soundly!
Usually I try to lay in bed and do my best to fall back to sleep, but when I have less then an hour to sleep I realized that I am fighting a losing battle and I might as well do something with the time. No need to waste it...
We are less then three days away from leaving the state of Missouri for good. I can hardly wait. In my life I don't waste much time on feelings of regret, guilt or other similar emotions. What is done...is done and no amount of emotions can change it. I try to look back and see what I can learn from what has happened and move on. I like to focus on the positives and let the rest roll of my back.
But when it comes to the state of Missouri I can not think of one single thing that is positive. Not one. Which for me is weird...I can usually see good in most situations.
The weather here is gross.
Everything bites...everything! From bugs to snakes to turtles...they all want a piece of you.
The roads are absolutely terrible...and I have been acrossed the country several times.
We have meet some nice people...but none of them are Missouri natives so I can't even give you a good evaluation on that.
And to top it off, Missouri is the state we were living in when our daughter died...so pretty much everything is shadowed by that fact.
I will scratch Missouri, (appropriately nick-named Misery) off my list and hope to never have to live here again...
posted by Original Blog-surfer | 4:56 AM
2 Comments:
waking up at 2.30?! hhmmm that's the time i usually go to bed. so where's the next place you're gonna land? if it's somewhere very north i can give you a few tips, there are really great mosquitoes here, so hospitable, may be you wanna give 'em a try! and the funny thing is it's the only place i feel quite peaceful.
you get up the same time i normalle get to sleep
insomnia is just a beautiful thing
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